Dawn Brocco's Life and Design Blog

Why I don't get to write as often as I'd like.

It's not that I'm on vacation - I wish, but we don't get those.

It's the whirlwind that my bod has me in. I don't know why they compare it to adolescence, because adolescence was a walk in the park.

Hot, cold, windows open, windows closed, this hormone cream, that hormone cream, this tincture 4x a day, being out of breath for no good reason, chores take twice as long to get done, drench the sheets and the jammies, sleep curled up neo-natal from being cold and wet, which means being cold the entire next morning. Can't wait for this to end.

I want to work, darnit. I want to design, I want to knit. I want to get enthused about a design and then actually have the energy to work on it.

I want to get through an entire day with the energy I used to have, instead of having to take 2 or 3 naps on the really bad days.

I want to gain back some weight. I'm 5'4" and fluctuating between 112 and 114 lbs. I don't know why anyone my age (holding back the boulder that is 50) would want to be this bony. (All those aging actresses trying to stay a size 2 and they look terrible.) And I don't want to, it just happened. My daughter is saving her 4's and 6's to pass on to me when she sees me next. I already know the 6's will be loose.

I'll be seeing the gyn as soon as hubby can drive comfortably, after his arm surgery, which is tentatively scheduled for next Wednesday. I'm gonna chew her ear off and hopefully, after a slew of tests, she can come up with something(s) to help, better than what I'm using.

That's it, whine over.

Got the hank of 220 from Webs yesterday, so am finally getting to do the boys' colorway swatch today, well, in between chores, so I'm not likely to get too far.

And I think I found an OK backing fabric for the actual baby blanket. It's the kind of design, though, that you could skip the backing, sew on a strip of fabric along one side and hang it up as an artful wallhanging near baby's crib.

I can't say when the pattern will be done - life is gonna change as of next Wedn. - so I hope to have it done before then. That's only half the battle, though.

It takes quite awhile to create a new webpage, reformat the pattern, create the pdf, size the photos for the webpage and the thumbnails for the category pages, link with photos on the proper category pages, list it on the Featured Yarns page and the home page in the New area, enter it in my cart both ways, then email 3 sets of databased shops, email my Google Groups subscribers, email the knitting for sale lists, and post it here!

Wait, not done yet! Print copies with letters to send to reps, the yarn manufacturer and catalog buyers.

Depending on how I feel, this can take 2 days to get done, at least - all for one pattern.

Time's a wasting and I want to get the laundry done before 10 pm, when I really don't want to be hauling myself up from the basement, yet, one more time!